Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Austin Monthly Home Article

Here is my article that in the new Austin Monthly Home, on newstands this week. This is a great new magazine that just started last year. Please pick it up today, you'll love it.

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I know what your thinking… your about to get a little money back from Uncle Sam, mainly because you took a nice write off on the your home office. What do you really do in that home office anyway, shop online, watch a little youtube? Regardless, your getting some coin back and it’s burning a whole in your pocket. Why not spend a little jack remodeling your nest? After all, payments are low on that no –interest loan and your friend the mortgage broker says he can get you a killer rate on a home improvement loan. You’ve got your credit card totals down to a 4 digit number. Let’s jump deeper into debt! It is the American way. Everybody’s doing it, right?

I think every couple should go through a remodel together. In fact, this should be something you have to show proof of before you get a marriage license. There are certain things that really put a couple to the test. Some of my favorites are, launching a boat together, hanging a picture, pictionairy, and remodeling a home together. Here’s how the system should work. You want to get married, you go down to the courthouse, you wait your turn and they escort you into an empty room with one chair in the middle. A judge comes in, sits in the chair and tells you and your spouse to paint the room. Sounds easy enough… until they wheel in a rack of color swatches and tell you to pick one. You either start fighting because both of you care too much or your fighting because one of you doesn’t care at all. Good luck.

One of the greatest debacles in couples remodeling a home is figuring out where to start. Our male/female priorities are completely out of wack. Men want things that protect their cars, help them build things, or entertain them (garages, shops and home theaters). Women want things that are for the inside or outside of their bodies (Kitchen and bathrooms). With women it’s never a room or a wall, it’s always a “space”, “vibe” or feeling. With guys, it’s how much will it cost and and am I likely to get lucky in this room?

I’ve been through a few home remodels with my wife, the latest has been going on the past four years, I finally conceded on the kitchen. Here’s the funny thing, neither of us EVER cook. We got steel appliances, concrete counter tops and we learned the power of multiples and square footage. You’ll wonder where you are spending your money after awhile as you watch the budget go out the window. You’ll hear your wife say things like “Sweetie, I don’t know why, but I just HATE these knobs”. How could you hate knobs? That’s all they are, knobs, they serve a simple function and I love them for that. She sees it differently. Guess what, I have now just devoted an entire weekend to knob hunting. Sounds simple enough, right? No. Sure it’s easy to walk into any cool design store, or home depot and grab something, until we find out the price. “Honey bunny, this one’s 28 dollars”, she says. I reply, “Sweetie sugar bear, we only need 1,2,3,4…..53 of them!” That’s almost 1,500 dollars on knobs and they weren’t even part of the original plan. This is madness! The power of multiples just got us. Then we needed a simple backsplash for the new concrete counter tops. Oh and by the way, the new counter tops will require a new sink, new faucet and we might as well have all the plumbing redone under the sing “as long as we’re here”. I don’t know if you have followed the trend in sinks, but they now need to be long and deep enough to bathe an Llama. Sinks are very expensive and we don’t even have a faucet yet. Who would have thought that women are brand conscious on faucets. I spent an entire weekend looking at sinks, another weekend entirely dedicated to faucets. I’m living the dream. Apparently, faucets with an umlaut in the name are all the rage these days. We have now tripled our kitchen budget and we still have no backsplash. I’m buying time to recoup our finances, meanwhile she enjoys discussing our backsplash dreams every single evening. I start throwing out the least expensive alternatives I can think of. “Angel muffin, you know, I hear there are trends towards more grout, I say we jump ahead of the game and do this whole space…. all grout, whatya say?” I get to spend the next two weekends looking at tile. Do you know how many tile stores there are in Austin, apparently everyone has one. This is where the square footage killed us. We have not concept of it, especially when it’s on a wall, underneath counters. Since it was just a backsplash, a small space, we figured we would just find what wanted and get er done. My wife, “Super Sugar Crisp, I really like this tile, what do you think?” “My sweet Lemon Drop, I love it, let’s go. We can catch the last quarter of the game”. Evidently, really small tiles are really, really expensive, especially with a glass finish. We do the math on my palm pilot. We only need about 50 square feet, at 28 bucks a pop, holy cow, we are right back up there in the knob zone and we never even discussed backsplash in our original budget. The cost has now quadrupled. We don’t even really use our kitchen. We microwave tea in there, that’s about it. The cabinets are filled with our wedding gifts from 9 years ago, still in the boxes… salad shooter, bread maker, bagle slicer, etc….

Since we moved in this house in 2001, it has new floors throughout, new roof, exterior paint, new decks, landscaping, ceiling fans, counter tops, appliances, new driveways, added exterior storage, and much, much more. It’s a constant battle and every project ended up quadruple the budget as mentioned above, that’s just the way it is. The beauty and agony of owning a home is that it’s constantly evolving, don’t forget to take the “before” pictures. We aren’t necessarily on the same page as what we want next. I’m bucking for a garage, she wants a new master bathroom.

Prediction, she gets the bathroom in ’07 because she’s a woman and women are always right. Second prediction, we put in a new elaborate shower with more of those expensive, tiny glass tiles, multiple shower heads and the everything. Third prediction, after about the third time I invite myself in during her shower, she calls a plumber and has all but one ripped out.

From our remodels, here are some things I know for certain to be true:

All painters are crazy, get ready to hear their life story.

It’s very uncomfortable sitting on your rear watching t.v. while a team of people work on your house, but you’ll get used to it.

If you put new carpet in any room, your dog with throw up on it inside of 24 hrs.

If you change one wall and they do sheetrock work, you will go to work looking like a cocaine addict for at least a month.

Good luck you’re your remodel, we’re all rooting for you.

Friday, February 23, 2007

The Police are Coming!!!

Pretty excited about the Police coming to Dallas very soon. I'm signed up on their $100 membership to get advance purchase tix. I'm going with a couple old friends from high school and we can all relive the Police days. I just wanted to share this blurb I found about their upcoming tour...

The Police’s reunion tour kicks off May 28th in Vancouver, British Columbia, and apparently, the band has a lot of work to do to get back into playing shape. Drummer Stewart Copeland told The New York Times, "Right now, we're not incredible. We started out like a high school band last week. We got to be like a college band. Yesterday, we started to sound like a bar band. Today, we sound like, 'OK, we could earn a living like this.' But we are not yet playing like we deserve to play in a stadium. We'll get there, now that we're on the right track." Nevertheless, Copeland is confident The Police can regain their old form, saying, "We were the greatest rock band in the world, and that's the way we want to be. And we still have enough ego to think that we can come back, probably just like all bands, and blow every other band out of the water."

Cool photo illusions

I guess on my blogs today I feel the need to just share other peoples material. That's o.k., right? It is a friday after all...

Here are some cool photo illusions. Enjoy
http://damncoolpics.blogspot.com/2007/02/photo-illusions.html

Do you love SNL parody commercials

Just stumbled across this and had to share it. It's some of the top Saturday Night Live commercials of all time. A few of them I had never seen. I love the "Bad Idea Jeans" one and I had never seen it before. It reminded me of two of my other favorites from SNL. "Mom Jeans" and the the classic "Three Legged Jeans". Enjoy.
http://www.brohans.com/2007/02/21/videos-13-snl-commercials-and-me

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Go outside, keyboard junkie!

I spend a lot of time on the computer...as do many of you. Chances are if you are reading this, you too are looking for the end of the internet... it's out there somewhere.
So, I had a little discovery today. I tend to be a bit talked out by the time I leave work. I've been on the air yaking for 4 hrs... not to mention the talking with my lovely co-workers even during the commercial breaks. I don't exactly feel the need to be social the remainder of the day and I'm looking for ideas, information and things to talk about in the upcoming days. I'm on the computer.

Today, I had an afternoon meeting so I decided to be one of those computer guys at the coffee shop. I realized something important. Taking your office work out to a more social environment is a great way to grow your network and reaquaint yourself with some old friends. I don't like to get interrupted any more than the next guy, but I also didn't have anything solid I had to finish, just general work. I found it entertaining, stimulating and intersting to set up a micro office where I could observe people and run into a few friends. I don't have any regular place that I go, especially since I got a city wide wi-fi card. It's nice to broaden your horizons, your input and I think this will enhance creativity. It's also a nice way to grow your network. Hit different coffee shops and restaurants. I'm a sucker for the dive local coffee shop. Thing is, for every person I ran into that I knew, most of them were there with someone I didn't know, again a chance to grow your network.

It's interesting how your thoughts change when your surroundings change, the converstations and stimuli change. I was having something different to eat for a change, such a creature of habit, listening to different music and bumping into different people.

Why are we so locked into our offices, at home or at work? It's kind of sad...really.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

I should be a better listener....

So last night I'm out for sushi at one of my regular places. I have about 4 that I like, but last night I was at Dragons Gate. Moto was the sushi chef there last night. I have talked to him so many times before.
I've been there many times before and Moto has taken a special interest in my '62 T-bird convertible that I brought there once many months ago. He always asks about it and generally, this is what we talk about. Last night he asks me if I know Steve, from the Continental Club. I have met Steve and happen to know that he is a classic car/hot rod guy. Foolishly, I assume that Steve is a sushi regular there and ask Moto if Steve comes in here for sushi.
Moto tells me that he doesn't come in here and that he knows him from a regular gig at the Continental Club. I'm floored. For those of you that don't know Austin, there are just a handful of very legeondary clubs in town that Stevie Ray, Janis Joplin the fab t-birds etc... have played and one of those places is the Continental Club. Absoultely, classic Austin. So we talk further and it turns out he has been playing a weekly gig there for the past year. I'm still perplexed. I asked what he played.
Blues Guitar? No damn way.... especially in Austin what many musicians refer to as the grad school of music. We start talking more. He in fact does play blues guitar and plays with a couple bands... I give him a hard time and ask "How can a sushi chef have the blues.... impossible... you need to be from Mississippi and be poor..."
So I am going to see Moto play the blues very soon and I'm ashamed of myself. He's been here something like 16 years and very deep into the music scene. I shouldn't have stereotyped and assumed that sushi was his whole world. I'm an idiot. I'm also angry with myself for only talking about my car and sushi. I should be more inquisitive and learn more about those around me. I've been selfish. Shame on me.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Attn. Mr. Dell


Attention Michael Dell. You are one smart Mo Fo!

Glad to see you are back behind the reigns at Dell… this is a good thing. I just read your 10 Questions article from the Jan, Time Magazine.

For those of you that haven’t seen it, Michael is explaining what they call their “Carbon Neutral” option when you buy a Dell PC. Basically, a big part of the environmental, global warming problem is the excess of carbon sent into the atmosphere. With the purchase of a Dell, you will be able to opt to be Carbon Neutral for a couple dollars on a laptop or about six bucks on a desktop. No, your pc is not going to suck carbon out of the air, but that dollar amount will be put towards a percentage of a tree needed to offset the amount of carbon your pc will put out during it’s lifetime. Thus, canceling each other out. Not only that, Dell has energy calculators online, so you can see what it will take to run it and opt for something more energy efficient. I love this.

This is acknowledging that you are part of the problem, difficult to change that and instead of changing the technology, just contributing to the offset. Brilliant again, Mr. Dell.

Here’s what I really, really love about this. I’m quite tired of everyone pointing the finger and blaming the government for our environmental issues. This tells me that there is a trend toward the private sector realizing there is a market for green living. Could private enterprise be the answer to our environmental issues? This is the dawning of a new era. All you have to do is look at Whole Foods to see that people are willing to pay more for the story that goes with it. Pick up any product in Whole Foods and read this story about how it is a better choice for Earth. This makes us all feel better about our consumption. I think the Toyota Prius may have been the tipping point on this. Prius owners drive them as a badge of honor. It’s one ugly ass car, small and silly but the owners love the feeling they get when other greenies see them and look at them with approval.

So, taking this a couple steps further, here’s a thought Mr. Dell. This one is free of charge because you have done so much for this great city and you employ many of my family members. Could we possibly one day see a green pc? Literally, green in color. Here’s a kicker, every piece of software that goes on a green pc, gets on there only by making a similar contribution to your carbon neutral program. How simple would it be to load a google reader type software with each green pc that automatically updates the user on all environmental issues locally, nationally and globally…automatically.

Here’s one more for you because I get irritated with the sheeple with their white headphones. I know you took a shot at the music industry with your Dell DJ. I used mine today in fact, much easier to use than my Ipod and Itunes. Man I hate Itunes, way too expensive for a digital download, too little $$$ to the artists and hard as hell to use. Would you take another shot with a green mp3 player, with green headphones? Partner with a music download service that doesn’t take as big of a cut as itunes, takes better care of the artists and portions of the proceeds go to environmental issues?

Apple just proved that there’s always room to jump into an existing market and do it better, look at the iphone hype. It can be done.

As Sandy and I say on the show, “I’m sure you have had a meeting about this”, but just in case you haven’t….

Monday, February 19, 2007

Damn Oprah!!!


Damnit. Oprah got me again. She's really jamming it to me this month. I've subscribed to her magazine and her home edition, joined her online club, donated to her school in Africa and she got me again!
We had that horrible cold wet weather last week so I was at home riding the spin bike and looking for something interesting on tv. I ended up tuning in Oprah and she had on all the contributors to this book called the Secret. They were being very vague about what the book was about but I like what all of them had to say. They came from different backgrounds; philosophy, fitness, metaphysics, quantum physics, spiritual counselors, etc... they all have been assembled by a woman to share their beliefs in The Secret.
I'm not going to be like they were and not share very much about the book. In fact, more so than the book, they were pushing the DVD they just made about The Secret. Not sure which works better for you, but the book is pretty easy to bang out in a weekend.
I would have never given a book like this a chance if Oprah wasn't selling it to me. She went on and on how all of her friends were calling her telling her she had to know about it, read the book or watch the dvd. She really seems to believe it in. I don't think she would have had them all on if the book didn't affect her.

So, this is an amazing spiritual self-help book. You kind of have to get in the right frame of mind before you read it. It's going to change your perception of how the world works, only if you will buy into it. If you are not willing to change your perceptions, don't read it.

The Secret suggests that we can minipulate the universe to give us everything we want through the "Law of Attraction". This means that there is an energy and wavelengths that minipulate our world to line up for what we ask of it. It questions that one percent of the world has all the wealth in the world and seems to be able to do it with ease. What don't the rest of the world have? They don't believe they can achieve anything, it's not for them and they don't ask for it.
With the Law of Attraction, like minded things and people will be drawn automatically to you and things will change to suit you. You make a REQUEST to the universe, you BELIEVE that it will happen and you focus on the FEELING it has and will bring you. The other thing is to show daily gratitude for the things the universe has already provided you.

Like I said, you have to approach this with an open mind. Have you ever noticed that extremely successful people always say in interviews that they always new this would all happen to them. They don't go through life as doubters.

I'm sure a lot of you are gagging at what this book suggests. I'm trying not to tell you too much so you can have your own interpretation of it.

If Oprah believes it, I believe it. There are few better role models than her on the path to great success. Please let me know if you read this and what you think. I think this book and dvd are about to explode. I bought into it and it's got me thinking about the life I live... would love it if it helps you too. jb

Sunday, February 18, 2007

What a wonderful day...


What an incredible day. I am going to have to keep this brief, because I just don’t have the emotion left in me to put this in any sort of long form.
I spent the weekend in Kansas, visiting my grandmother for her 94th birthday. She took a spill a few weeks ago and was badly bruised and had to stay in the hospital for a week and then a rehab center for the past two weeks. It was so hard to see her there, the place was somewhat depressing. I kept looking around and most of the patients where very elderly, but didn’t seem like they were going to be rehabilitated. My grandmother didn’t belong there and that made me very sad. She is and has always been so full of life and positive; I was concerned that this place would bring her down.

The good news is that she gets to go home on Tuesday; she worked very hard in therapy and wants to go home. Aside from her poor hearing, she was the same person I have always known. Very sweet, giving, loving and full of life. I don’t know where she has found the energy, having lost her husband about 25 years ago.

She’s lived a perfect life and everyone that meets her loves her and feeds off of her energy and sense of well being. What at wonderful place to be in your life. I’m so envious of her.

We got to celebrate her birthday around tons of extended family. Her kids (my aunts and uncles) are all amazing and so appreciative of her. There was such a great moment where she was sitting there, we had just divided up the birthday cake and one of her great, great grandchildren came up to her to get a bite of cake. Here you have a 94 year old giving a one year old a bite of cake and 5 generations passing from had to hand. It brought me to tears. It was a very emotional weekend.
I have been emotional every time I have left her for the last 10 years or so. I’m afraid to say goodbye and I’m afraid it’s the last time I’m going to see her.

I spent most of yesterday and a couple hrs today just sitting next to her with my arm around her and holding her hand. She’s so sweet. Today, she kept asking if I was tired of holding her hand, I repeatedly said no. She pointed out that my leg must be tired from holding up her hand. I denied it and she pointed out that I was on my tip toes with my foot for over an hour. She was right. I was doing that so her hand wouldn’t have to hang down too far and be uncomfortable. So my leg was tired and shaking a little, but I just wanted to sit with her.

So finally the time came to say goodbye. I dread this as I have for the last 10+ years. I’m saying goodbye, looking into her eyes, giving her as strong of a hug as I can without hurting her frail body and she asks me “Will you please be a pall bearer for me?” I lost it. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. It was sad and wonderful all at the same time. She is doing so well but she’s also so at peace with herself, her life and her future. What an amazing woman.

Of course I had a good cry all the way to the airport, but everything felt very peaceful. It was a pleasure to drive out of there and look at the snow covered hills. I love this place; I love my grandmother and family. I have this feeling she’s ready to let go… and she deserves it. What a wonderful life.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

As You Think


So my mother in law recommended this book to me called As You Think. It was written in the early 1900's by a man who quit going to school at the age of 15 to help his family. It's a psychology and spiritual book. It's been a bestselling self help book for many, many years. I'm facinated that it's so powerful. If it were written today, this guy would have never been published without any sort of credibility from his education. Fortunately for us, that was a different time and place and the book has survived.
I don't really want to share all of it with you, it's an easy read that you can bang out on the weekend, but I particularly loved the last chapter. It's short enough that I can share with you most of it. Not sure what the copyright laws are on that, but he's been dead for a long time and fortunately his lawyer is probably dead too. Besides, I want you buy this book.

I loved the last chapter because I could really relate to it. I like being around calm people that make you feel good about yourself. I am often given a hard time because I'm not easily exciteable. This chapter made me feel better about myself and what I would like to strive for. I don't want to come off as arrogant as most of what I read was good motivation for who I would like to be. So, here is most of the last chapter of As You Think:

The more tranquil we become, the greater is our success, our influence, our power for good.

Calmness of mind is one of the beatuful jewels of wisdom. It is the result of long and patient effort in self-control. Its presence is an indication of ripened experience, and of a more than ordinary knowledge of the laws and operations of thought.
We become calm in the measure that we understand ourselves as thought-evolved beings, for such knowledge necissitates the understanding of others as the result of thought, and as we develop a right understanding, and see more and more clearly the internal relations of things by the action of cause and effect, we cease to fuss and fume and worry and grieve, and remain poised, steadfast and serene.
People who are calm, having learned how to govern themselves, know how to adapt themselves to others; and these others, in turn, revere the calm people's spiritual strength, and feel that they can learn from them and rely upon them.
The more tranquil we become, the greater is our success, our influence, our power for good. Even the most ordinary salespeople, for example, will find their business prosperity increase s they develop a greater self-control and equanimity, for people will always prefer to deal with people whose manner is pleasand and steady.
Strong, calm people are always loved and revered. They are like shade-giving trees in a thirsty land, or a sheltering rock in a storm.

Who does not love a tranquil heart, a sweet-tempered, balanced life? It does not matter whether it rains or shines, or what changes come to those possessing these blessings, for they are always sweet, serene, and calm. That exquisite poise of character that we call serenity is the last lesson of our culture; it is the flowering of life, the fruitage of the soul. It is precious as wisdom, and more to be disired than gold - yes, than even fine gold. How insignificant mere money seeking looks in comparison with a serene life - a life that dwells in the ocean of truth, beneath the waves, beyond the reach of the tempests, in the eternal calm!
How many people do we know who sour their lives, who ruin all that is sweet and beautiful by explosive tempers, who destroy their poise of character, and make bad blood! It is a question whether the great majority of people do not ruin their lives and mar their happiness by lack of understanding and self-control. How few pople we meet in life who are well-balanced, who have that exquisite poise that is characteristic of the finished character!
Yes, humanity surges with uncontrolled anger, is tumultuious with ungoverned grief, is blowin about by anxiety and doubt. Only the truly wise, whose thoughts are controlled and purified, make the winds and the storms of the soul obey them.
Self-control is strength; right thought is mastery; calmness is power.
Say to your heart, "Peace, be still!"

Crackberry Freaks

This is a plea to my friends to put away their crackberry's. You know, your friend that is constantly checking their blackberry or other PDA while you are in mid-conversation, sometimes when you are talking on the phone or even worse, when you are face to face with them over lunch or dinner. They all think they are so discreet, barely pulling it out of their pocket and glancing down at it. It's so unbelievably rude and you see it everywhere today.




I'll be the first to admit, when I first got my Treo I was all excited to have it check my email 24/7. I thought it would bring freedom from the computer and the desk. Instead, I was a slave to my device and getting disconnected from the world. It's easy to convince yourself that you are staying connected and nurturing relationships. It's actually quite the opposite.




I can't take all the credit for my hatred for crackberry addicts. One of my favorite bloggers is Tim Sanders. He did a very cool video blog about this back in November and it really stuck with me. So, rather than have me regurgitate what Tim has said, go watch this video blog about talking to people on the phone or person to person and the dangers of email.

Go to the post from Nov 28th called "Don't say no over email"

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Are you listening to the music?





So here we are in february and most of us are starting to forget our new years resolutions. For the most part, I'm still all over mine. This is going to sound really ridiculous, but one of my goals was to get reconnected with music. I missed it. I know that sounds crazy, or doesn't make much sense... but a disconnect happened somewhere along the line. It's particulary easy these days to get caught up in the television craze or get lost on the internet. Guilty as charged... I'm a victim of that.
Having had a recent personalithy profile done (another blog for another day) it was pointed out to me that I needed more music and harmony in my life to "feel right". It's so true. I grew up with music pumping into my ears and it was everything to me through the high school years (alongside with girls and cars). The more things change, the more they stay the same. I still love music, girls and cars.

So, rather than seeking out new music as a focus, which I have done somewhat... I wanted to rediscover some music I already love.

For the past year or so I've been a Radney Foster addict. I was never a country music fan growing up and it was all new to me, but the more I get to know his music, the more I realize that it's not country at all. He's a great Texas singer/songwriter who is a great storyteller. He paints an incredible picture that I can project myself into easily. I can so relate to him as a hopeless romantic trying to figure all this love stuff out. It doesn't hurt that in my car he's easy to sing along with without my voice cracking ala Justin Timberlake. I love his smooth delivery and cool non descript style. Just take it in for what it's worth and enjoy it. He seems to connect as easily with men and women, but guys... if you want to listen to love songs that won't make you puke, he's the man.

I've really been digging deep and pulling out all my Paul Weller/The Jam stuff. I got introduced to The Jam when I was in college and fell in love with this band. It came out of the punk era, peaked during post punk, which is my era.. and then I got to grow up with Paul Weller and graduate to nice singer/songwriter music. Paul Weller, in all his genres is the epitome of cool and you never tire of his music. He's not trying to write a hook or a hit, it just seems to be more of a feeling. As I go back and listen to it now, it means so much more to me, probably because I'm paying attention. My favorite song of his spanning several decades is probably "Brand New Start". Paul never plays the states.... I have to seen him play before one of us dies.

While I'm talking music, I have to talk about The Police. They just announced that they are going on tour yesterday. I'm already emailing with two of my best friends from high school about going to the show. Today I signed up and paid $100 to be on their fanlist and get a ticket offer to buy tix before they go on sale to the general public. They are coming to Dallas on June 26th and I have to be there. No band.... I repeat NO band meant more to me than The Police did when I was in high school. They were such a party of my growing up. I've never seen them live. As much as I loved them growing up, the cost of a concert just seemed out of my range. Now.... I'm not rich or anything, but I would pay ten thousand dollars to be strapped to Stings back during the show. That wouldn't be much fun for the other concert goers but I sure would enjoy it. The songs take me back immediately to all those feeling I had in high school, mostly about love, or crushes, or whatever it was back then.
This is a big freakin deal and I hope I can get good tix when they go on sale and I hope the band can keep it together and finish this tour. I was reading yesterday that Sting woke up one day and realized he needs to call Andy and Stewart and make ammends, get back together and go on tour. I think Sting is at the same place I am in my life where I am realizing what's important, wants to make ammends with people he cares about and enjoy life a bit more.

If you read through this, I hope you have enjoyed it. I have been doing this for sometime now, just not publishing it. One of my new years resolutions was to write daily. It's scary to share it and be judged. I'm going to start posting these and give it a shot. I hope we can make a connection on some level. I appreciate your time. jb